Samstag, 19. Dezember 2009
First of all I would like to say thank you to all my fans and friends who are writing me Christmas letters and those wonderful wishes for 2010.
2009 was a great year for me already and I can honestly say, that I never enjoyed that much being a professional Bodybuilder like in the last few months.
Looking forward to 2010, I know it will become an even more successful and better year for me. I met so many great people this year who taught me to be more positive, to use this mental energy for reaching my goals and who showed me what it means to be strong. I still need to become a lot stronger in so many ways, but even this process is somehow quite magnificent. I learned again to enjoy the small things of life and at this moment I can say that I even enjoy the daily “boring” routine of doing cardio or preparing the same meals again and again. It became a pleasure again to do every single step into the direction of my Pro debut.
Almost half a year has passed already since I started dieting and still I am at 270lbs.
I didn’t expect to be in such a good condition already with this relatively high bodyweight, but basicly it shows to me that I did everything right so far. Day by day it is getting harder now but day by day I also start to motivate myself more and more.
Last week I also had another great photo shooting with my good friend Reiner Dahms.
Actually the first photographer who ever took pictures of me (in 2006) and so we have a long history of our photo sessions already.
I hope you will also follow my journey in 2010 and before I wish some happy holidays to everyone. Stay positive and realize your dreams !
Donnerstag, 10. Dezember 2009
Two weeks have passed again and time is running. I keep myself really busy these days with photo shootings and filming footage for my DVD. Day by day I practise my Posing routine, besides my two training sessions and every day I feel completely exhausted in the evening, but at the same time completely proud of myself having accomplished another big step on my way to the Pro debut. I feel tired and great. It is hard to explain, but the more I work and the more I feel the progress, the more excited I get, regardless if the cravings are getting stronger or the energy level is quite low.
In the morning I feel really bad usually. I can hardly sleep and usually I only sleep 4-6 hours during the night. I run into the gym as soon as possible to get my metabolism accelerated again. Just in order to be on track with my meal schedule. During the day the business of Pro Bodybuilding continues. Emails without end reach me these days and I need to make phone calls every day to realize all the plans and appointments I have scheduled so far and of course I also spend some time to answer emails of other athletes. I prefer to call them athletes instead of fans because basicly I still feel like the little boy that I have been a few years ago, who just loves the sport of Bodybuilding and not yet really like a Pro Bodybuilder who is officially one of the best in the world. Thinking about this motivates me again to give my best and my very best only.
I just returned from an amazing Photo Shooting in Finland this week and I am really proud to show some impressions again. Moreover there will be a Training series published in some Magazines and Websites. Keep looking forward to it and enjoy the great Photowork of Mike Siren. I consider these pictures as true art.
We had lots of fun at the shooting, I am really honoured to work with him and of course I am more than glad to receive such great pictures already, more than 10 weeks out of the show.
Keep looking out for more and check out Pakkotoisto.com regularly for more articles…
Freitag, 27. November 2009
Being completely right on track with my schedule, a few days ago I read the sad news about the IRONMAN 2010. It is really sad that such an event has to be cancelled and especially in the MECCA of Bodybuilding I would have never expected that. I focused my offseason and whole diet completely on this day and I can honestly say, that every time I walked into a gym, my inner voice was telling me: YOU WANT TO GO TO THE IRONMAN! SO DO WHAT YOU HAVE TO DO AND TRAIN !
After a little moment being totally confused, I refocused myself and so I keep looking forward to my new goals. Like it is always, when one door is closing many others do open for you.
I still hope the Ironman will be re-scheduled in February between the Phoenix Pro and Arnold Classics, but I am not really optimistic about it. But nonetheless there is the Phoenix PRO for sure.
One day before my birthday it is a great timing to have my Pro debut.
As my DVD is also a big issue for me and I am totally convinced it will be a really great one, I will moreover compete at the Melbourne Pro in the middle of March. Wayne Gallasch is of course filming there and so we can also add some footage of my Australia trip. This week I finally booked all my flights and now it is again my turn to improove as much as I can until those big days for me.
The diet is going great and in the last month I did not loose a single pound whereas my shape improoved dramatically. It is just going perfect so far and I am doing my very best every day.
Somehow it seems to me like the Pro card is giving me some wings. The diet goes more easy than usual and I have not a single moment when I loose my focus or my motivation.
Combined with the great results I see at my photoshoots and the motivational emails I receive every day, I am staying in a totally positive mood.
Maybe its also the new system of my trainer who is tormenting me mercilessly by eating SUHSI right in front of my nose.
I am also very pleased that I can post another link to a new training video, published at Probodybuilding.com
Thanks to Adam for this, who filmed my Shoulder Workout, after a really stressful photoshoot and Expo day, in Las Vegas at the Mr.Olympia two months ago.
Mittwoch, 4. November 2009
After having spent a great time in America again it was really hard for me to return back to cold Germany.
My girl Tonya and her five kids... I mean dogs, made me forget about the stress of dieting almost the whole time.
Arriving in Frankfurt after having had a broken seat on the plane, one of my first stops, after taking care of my food naturally, was the gym of course.
Did I mention that my Gym is something like the Venice Golds of Germany? Without sun and without beaches of course. But at least it has enough history and raw iron to be called like that.
You have to get used to long flights, you need to find ways to take care of your meal schedule as soon as you arrive somewhere and even when being too tired to walk, you need to stimulate your muscles, having at least a small workout.
Even at my level it starts to become a big influence and I do have much respect for all the top Olympians doing this almost every weekend.
On Monday, still having a bit problems with jetlag my next important appointment was scheduled.
Wayne Gallasch who is producing my DVD travelled to Germany to visit me in the "Dungeon", the XXL Bodytown and also the Ottwald Gym, which is my other gym, where Marcus Ruehl used to train.
12 weeks out of the Ironman we filmed the training of every entire muscle in only 2 days.
Divided into four videoshootings I spend over 10 hours lifting weights at maximum intensity.
The results turned out to be even better than expected at this point of my diet and it is a great opportunity to work with Wayne, a real legend in the Bodybuilding-Videobusiness.
Needless to say that I was falling into my bed at 8pm already after this workout-marathon and it felt like heaven just to close the eyes and do nothing anymore.
For the next 8 weeks I am dedicating my whole time on improoving my condition to the maximum.
On the day I go back to the US I need to be ready. Basicly on that day I need to be in the condition that I could walk on stage immediately. All I need to do in the last 3 weeks before the contest in America will be
to conserve the condition. In this way I will be on the safe side and I know that all the upcoming photoshootings over there will only make it better.
The final countdown has started: 12 weeks to go
Freitag, 23. Oktober 2009
Until this moment I have only 9 weeks to bring myself as close as possible to contest shape as I want to travel to Las Vegas 4 weeks before the show. At this moment I want to be ready. I have to be prepared for the honour to work with famous American magazines and photographers.
Mittwoch, 7. Oktober 2009
After coming back to Germany my first goal was to return to my daily routine again.
The flight back to Germany was really hard and the jet lag you get flying east is horrible. The first two days I really had to force myself to keep my workouts on an high intensity level and at the same time I needed to write tons of emails after having had many successful meetings in Las Vegas.
Because of all this stress my body went down to 260 lbs for a short time.
So my trainer Francisco Guerrero decided that I am allowed to have my first cheat day after 12 weeks of dieting and I spent a great evening having as much Sushi as I was able to eat.
The following day my next photoshooting was scheduled and receiving so many positve answers from the USA, I decided to come back to Las Vegas this week.
My bodyweigt is finally again at 265 lbs an my shape is getting better week by week.
I am really looking forward to the next weeks. I am very grateful having met so many great personalities in the last weeks. Starting by all the photographers I will have the honour to work with and most of all my girl Tonya who is making me smile inside and out all the time in these days.
I feel so much better in the USA and I simply know that this is the place to be for my future.
Donnerstag, 1. Oktober 2009
LAS VEGAS Mr.Olympia weekend
Arriving in Vegas the travel started really bad.
Not only that my connecting flight from Charlotte was 2 hours late, I also had a problem receiving my rental car. Somehow they didn't find my reservation and so
I spend 2 more hours at the rental car station.
Even before checking in into the Orleans Hotel, my first stop was the closest Wal Mart.I needed fresh meat and of course rice.
As I stayed in a hotel without kitchen, I had no chance to
prepare some vegetables. So I bought a lot of Sodium reduced V8 juice.
Finally I was able to go to bed at 3.30am in the morning after just 30 hours of travelling.
The following days started slowly. I needed to recover from the flight and
so I did't make any appointments on the first days.
It all started on Monday when I filmed some parts for my DVD with Wayne Gallasch and GMV. I was really happy about the results and luckily the dry air of Vegas made me loose some water.
It was followed by many projects for other websites, like Muscular Development "In The Trenches" or even Magazine Photoshoots with famous photographers. I need to say thank you to all those video- and photographers, who were interested to shoot me even in this early phase of my diet.
The Olympia weekend itself turned out to be a huge success as well. Besides meeting photographers, and fixing photoshootigs in January, I am also pretty optimistic that there might be a future sponsorship of an US company very soon.
It is hard to get your name out in the US, but maybe this travel was kind of a breakthrough for myself.
Already I have some new projects in America next month. I know that the travelling will be very stressful again, but I simply feel, that America is THE place for my future. I can train better, feel better and the whole atmosphere is much more positive to me. Maybe I still would have decided to stay in Germany and not travelled to the US before the Ironman again if I didn't meet Tonya. But we had an instant connection and meeting her made my days. She is beautiful inside and out. When she finally said, that I am invited to visit again, there was no question at all for me anymore if it would be good or not to go back to the Staates.
Next week I will fly back to Vegas and even if I am very exhausted from the jet lag, I keep smiling every moment in these days.
I am very blessed how everything developed and I am looking forward to every new day of my diet.
I hope you will enjoy my small video-diary of my days aroud the Olympia.
I had a great time and I am so grateful having met so many good people for my life.
It was the best thing that can happen to you as a Pro Bodybuilder.
I travelled to Vegas for business, but it changed my life very positve in every sigle way. Jobwise and privately.
I can say for sure that I am one step closer to my goal now: "Living a good life because of Bodybuilding"
Donnerstag, 17. September 2009
Another two weeks are gone and I am getting ready to travel to Las Vegas this Friday.
I am excited for my upcoming photo shootings and the video sessions for my DVD.
Furthermore to meet the Elite of the scene and many friends will give another kick for my motivation levels.
It is really needed in this moment. I had to face a lot of stress in my private life and yet I am still working on it to bring everything in the right order again.
Nothing is worse in a diet than stress, so I have to get rid of it as soon as I can.
The diet makes you even more emotional in certain times and it is a tough game not to let this influence your sport, which basicly became my job now.
I lost 4 lbs in the last two weeks and regarding the emotional stress I had it is a quite small weight loss luckily. There is a big connection of your body and your mind and if one part has problems the other one will follow immediately.
I am still at 270lbs and I still got enough time to bring back some volume and fullness. I just need to refocus on my real goal and this is the IRONMAN PRO.
This shall be my destination and nothing can stop me only myself.
Last weekend I had a wonderful time in Denmark. It was a great seminar and regarding the emails I received afterwards from some visitors, I am really happy that I was able to give them some view into my lifestyle of doing Bodybuilding.
I hope to have such opportunities soon again. It is always nice to meet different people from other countries or gyms and to speak with them about our passion for the sport.
Yesterday I had my last photosession in Germany prior to the Olympia and of this shooting you can see some samples here.
Actually I am not really happy about my shape, because I know it could have been better, but regarding that I am still over 18 weeks out,
I think everything is just right on track.
It is a great feeling to know that the day of my Pro debut gets closer.
In some way I feel how the excitement mixed with nervousity is rising in me.
I am grateful to have this chance to compete on a Pro stage with 23 years only.
So many people dream of this their whole lifetime. So it is my duty to bring the best possible shape ever.
I am finishing to prepare my luggage for Las Vegas now.
Vegas baby, Vegas !!! ;)
Sonntag, 30. August 2009
Three weeks have been gone again. Time is running once you got used to your routine, but everything continues to be right on track.
My weight is still staying at the same level but week by week I can see other small improvements.
Two weeks ago I had a video shoot with a German Bodybuilding Magazine which filmed a leg-training battle against a German Strongman Champion. I had to fight with my knee problems but I still was able to front-squat three more reps with 400lbs. I think I was able to proof that also Bodybuilders have some power in their legs…Hopefully the video goes online soon.
After this I decided to change my leg training a bit from now on. I still train at my limit but the selection of my exercises changes a bit. I just have the feeling that now in diet my joints are much more sensitive and I don’t want to risk a injury. Especially as my legs are my strongest body part.
The week after I had another photo shooting with a German physique photographer. I never worked with him before, so I am excited to see the results and I am currently waiting for the first small selection he will send to me.
It is only 21 weeks to go anymore until I will finally have my Pro debut. It’s a strange feeling but I am motivated every day and at the moment I am very optimistic to be better than ever and at least 20 lbs heavier.
Next weekend I will hold a seminar in
Sonntag, 9. August 2009
Another week of my diet is over and it is working better than expected.
I keep my carbohydrates very high and still there is an improovement of my shape every week.
I even get stronger in many excercises and the motivation is rising the better I look.
On some days I have no hunger at all. Only at the three most stressful days I have problems to sleep because of the hunger. But those are the days making me better and I really feel how they boost my metabolism.
In the beginning of the week, Germany's famous Physique Photographer Reiner Dahms (www.reinyday.de) was taking the first shooting at all in my preparation. We was not expect too many good shoots as I was just on diet for two weeks, but him and even myself, we were really satisfied about the results of our shooting.
Another motivating moment in a long contest diet and after such an event you are much more determinded to give your best.
I started to make my schedule for the week in Las Vegas around the Olympia. Besides preparing my meals and having my two gym sessions, this is the most occupying project for now.
Writing emails and waiting for answers can be really stressful sometimes.
Anyways I am looking forward to my scheduled shootings and videos and of course the Mr.O Expo to meet many friends again.
In the end of the week I was having a problem with my knee when training Quads.
On repetition 13, while doing Front Squats with 450lbs, I heard a strange sound in my knee and afterwards the pain was brutal. I am still proud that I wasn't give up my training session and after two very soft exercises, I was able to do 450lbs Reverse Hacksquats and afterwards Lunges again.
Still my knee is hurting but now I know that I just have to lower the weights a bit.
I don't have enough water in my body anymore and so the joints are more sensitive.
Let's start into the next week...
Freitag, 31. Juli 2009
Two weeks of my diet have passed already.
For the beginning I still eat 800g of Carbohydrates and 350g of Proteins. I will keep this ammount until I see that there are no changes anymore. I don't think I have to go much lower to loose most of the fat and as soon as possible I will raise the carbs again.
The weight was going down to 265lbs immediately after a few days, but then came back to 270 lbs
I see the first little results and and my overall feeling is getting much better. I am not that tired anymore like I used to be in offseason and somehow even the loss of water helps me to train a little bit heavier now.
Cravings - well, not at this point of my diet. This period is probably the best of the whole preparation. I can still train very heavy, maybe even get stronger a bit and besides I am not hungry or feeling powerless.
I am getting into my routine again. Every day is almost the same than the day before or the day after. On the one side this is something which is struggeling in your mind, but at the same time it's the best thing to do for an athlete.
My rest day was not the usual routine of course, but I cannot even say that I was recovering.
After having some check on my car I maybe have to fix a huge problem and so I am looking for alternatives right now, as I am not sure if I am gonna really do that. Somehow it goes always like this. All the week you try to reach this one free day but normally you have to do so many things like going food-shopping, taking care of the house or doing other things for your normal life, so you don't feel recovered at all.
Today I will have another leg training. Last week I was able to do Front Squats with 450lbs for 14 reps, so today I change my first exercise and probably go for Hack Squats. I like this day. You can never reach such levels of intensity except on the leg day. Eating my meals will get really heavy afterwards but I am always looking forward on this day. Usually this is the day when I loose my 1lbs every week.
I can tell myself every day that I am getting ready for a Pro show now. This has nothing to do with a hobby anymore. The better I train and the better I present, the better my life can be in the future.
Donnerstag, 30. Juli 2009
After a long and productive offseason I finally started my first preparation for my professional debut. I trained as heavy as never before in this time and my body responded well on the 18 months of hardcore offseason. In summer 2008 I already reached my all-time highest weight which was 285 lbs and the more time I spent on building up more muscles, the more my shape improoved while the weight was staying on the same level. My training weigths also were rising constantly and all in all I can be really happy about how the things went.
Still the last year was also one of the hardest times in my career. After winning my Pro card so early, there was a lot of controversary about my Pro licence. Many people was putting me down and at some point you start to doubt on yourself. I think many young people in my age wouldn't have been able to get through these hard times. The most teenagers are not strong enough in their attitudes and opinions when they face negative talk. Still I never gave up. I knew that I have my goals and no matter what happens I would go until the bitter end (Maybe its German characteristics).
I am proud that I was never let somebody influence myself and I can only advice all the talented young Bodybuilders out there to always believe in themselves. Everybody can train, everybody can eat well, but the toughest fight is the one you will have in your mind and I believe that the athlete with the strongest mental power will be always the victorious one.
The fight is not over and I am still fighting my battle, but I came to the point where I am telling myself, that I will proof all the negative people wrong and I will show everyone who I really am.
In the whole offseason I seen many bad things in the sport of bodybuilding and only a few good ones. I realized myself how difficult it is to find reliable partners, to find friends and people around you who will not let you down. I had trouble with sponsors who didn't keep the contracts, I was looking desperately for support in Germany and until now I am still fighting completely on my own. Well, not completly. I have my wonderful parents who always encouraged my plans, I found my lovely girlfriend in the time I felt completely alone and a few friends who will never let me down for sure. I learned that to reach my goals I only need those few people who really understand me and will stay loyal to me no matter what happens. It has to be a working system and as long as they are with you, you don't have to care about some negativity on Internet-boards written by nobodys.
I am looking optimistic to the upcoming diet now. I worked hard and only a few things could have been better so far. Now it is time to get peeled.
I was 225lbs when turning Pro in December 2007 and in January 2010 I should be able to get solid 245-250 lbs on stage.
Who knows what the future might bring to us, but if there is something that I can lead into a positive direction I will take my chance.
It is important to have goals and many people are writing me mails what those goals are for me...
First of all I can always answer this question with one ultimate goal. I learned this from my good friend Ed Connors:
I want to make a good living from Bodybuilding
There is more than winning contests for me. For sure its nice to be a winner and for sure I dream of a victory some day. But basicly I have a passion for a wonderful sport and I am allowed to live this lifestyle professionally. If there will be the day, that myself, my loving wife and maybe my future children can live happily because of my achievements in Bodybuilding, I guess I would be the happiest person on earth.
But I know that basicly everyone wants to hear closer goals when asking this question and so I also want to publish my goals for this diet:
- As it will be my Pro debut I hope I can place somewhere in the Top 15, whereas a placing in the Top 10 would be a dream for a 23-year old Bodybuilding-Baby like me
- I want to work with the best photographers of the scene and get my name out in the USA and of course I also hope to find a good supplement company believing in my career and supporting the realization of my dream. If this would happen I would move to the USA permanently and for this I am waiting since I started Bodybuilding ;)
But lets stop the talking now and start with the facts.
I hope you will enjoy my journey to the Pro stage !!!